Christmas Eve
Today is Christmas Eve and also my dearest father’s birthday! When I was busy with celebrating Christmas in Life Group and church, I totally forgot today is my father’s birthday. How shame I am! This afternoon my sister sent a message to me from China, which said Merry Christmas to me and also told me about today is Daddy’s birthday! I suddenly felt so guilty!
Last week, I sent a Christmas card back to China for my dearest families. One reason is I want to share Jesus’s love with them and make them feel the love from God. The other reason is I realised my parents’ relationship is still not good! But until last Saturday, the card still didn’t arrive! I cried out to God and asked Him to help me to let the card arrive safely and deliver the message that I want to share with my dearest familes!
Praise God that my Mum told me today that the card arrived yesterday! I am so excited that God answered my prayer and let the Christmas card arrive before Christmas day!But when I called my Mum, she didn’t feel happy to celebrate Daddy’s birthday tonight, even didn’t have any idea about Christmas eve or Christmas! How sad it is! When I felt joyful in Life Group’s x-mas party or church “unforgettable Christmas”, I always thought if my families could feel what I feel, how wonderful it is! I really wanna give all I can give to my families!
I remember there was a question that asked during x-mas party by Ray: what are you going to give for your precious friends or families as a Christmas gift? In my heart, I know I can give my life to my families or my precious friend if necessary! I truely love them so much! But now even celebrating my dearest Daddy’s birthday with my families, I could not make it! I really felt guilty when I heard the crying sound of my Mum from the other phone side! My heart is really really sad!!
I questioned God what kind of the situation that need to face like this? I wanna go home, back to China and share the gospel with my own families? How come I am here to save other people’s lives, how about my families? Who has the mercy on them? Who can share the gospel with them? Who can really take care of them? I wanna solve the problem between Mum and Dad, give them more love which is from you!! But what I am doing now? Caring about others’ lives everyday and ignoring my own loving families?
There is only one answer in my heart! I need you do more for my kingdom! I need you! Obey my calling! Obey! You can do more than what you can imagine! Be strong!!
God, Jesus! I know! I know I need to be strong in You! I know your calling is clearer day by day! Except obedience, I don’t have any way out! But Lord, on the Christmas Eve, can I please have one prayer request: I pray that my Daddy will have a great birthday tonight! my parents’ relationship will get better after tonight! Please open the door for my families to let them know You more after tonight!
Lord, nothing is impossible for You! It is so great that You came to the earth 2000 years before and showed Your love to all of us! I commit myself and my whole families to Your mighty hands tonight, all of us need Your great love and mercy!! I pray in Jesus name, Amen!!
Rejoice
Today I went to University of Queensland (UQ) to get my result of IELTS, it supposed to be known after 1pm. However, somehow the office was closed from 12pm-3pm and I arrived there around 1:15pm. Man, I need to wait around 2 hours in UQ. My heart is so reluctant, how can I kill my 2 hours? I questioned myself and my heart is full with anxiety on the result because I sensed the result won’t be accepted.
It was interesting that when I prayed for the sharing in the communion for life group yesterday. God asked me to rejoice! I know God is teaching me something, and then I promise to God that no matter what happens that has happened. I still give Him praise.
Back to this after 2 hours waiting time. During that time, I went to UQ’s social and science library. Every time I go to UQ, I always wanna visit its library, but I am always on rush and then leave. How sad it is! But today finally I got the chance to sit inside the library and walk around those high bookshelfs. I like the feeling in library, even just sit inside for a while and look outside view through its windows. I enjoy the quiet in the library and smell from abundant books! Just graduated, I already miss my study time in the library. How interesting…
In the quiet library, there was a battle in my mind on IELTS result, wanna get 7 but I didn’t do well on that day, hopefully, God will give me favour. Another voice is you didn’t prepare very well so you won’t get the result that you want and so on! Finally, I said to Lord! May I just ask for qualified mark-6 for each this time? My request always gets decrease before God when I know that it will be a challenge.
1 hour passed, 30 mins passed…finally the time reached to 3pm. I went to the office and get the envelop with my IELTS result. Open, open, I open it! Can’t really believe my eyes, my result for IELTS is so bad especially for reading and writing parts! The overall mark is 6. I questioned God, is that the mark you answered for my prayer?
I walked to bus stop filled with disappointment! When I sit down and waited for the bus. One of the strangers passed by and gave me a free bus ticket to back home. I was amazed that how come she knew I need a ticket? God is amazing, right? So I told God I trust in You and will rejoice always and forever no matter what happen!!
Philippians 4:4-5
4 Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5 Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near.
Beijing 2008
Miss China, especially, 2008 is coming..yeah..2008 Olympic will be held in Beijing. Wanna watch the competitions there..Can I?? Update the promoting video about logo.. I love the video, so great!
