The heart of worship

Today I went to University of Queensland (UQ) to get my result of IELTS, it supposed to be known after 1pm. However, somehow the office was closed from 12pm-3pm and I arrived there around 1:15pm. Man, I need to wait around 2 hours in UQ. My heart is so reluctant, how can I kill my 2 hours? I questioned myself and my heart is full with anxiety on the result because I sensed the result won’t be accepted.

It was interesting  that when I prayed for the sharing in the communion for life group yesterday. God asked me to rejoice! I know God is teaching me something, and then I promise to God that no matter what happens that has happened. I still give Him praise.

Back to this after 2 hours waiting time. During that time, I went to UQ’s social and science library.  Every time I go to UQ, I always wanna visit its library, but I am always on rush and then leave. How sad it is! But today finally I got the chance to sit inside the library and walk around those high bookshelfs. I like the feeling in library, even just sit inside for a while and look outside view through its windows. I enjoy the quiet in the library and smell from abundant books! Just graduated, I already miss my study time in the library. How interesting…

In the quiet library, there was a battle in my mind on IELTS result, wanna get 7 but I didn’t do well on that day, hopefully, God will give me favour. Another voice is you didn’t prepare very well so you won’t get the result that you want and so on! Finally, I said to Lord! May I just ask for qualified mark-6 for each this time?  My request always gets decrease before God when I know that it will be a challenge. 

1 hour passed, 30 mins passed…finally the time reached to 3pm. I went to the office and get the envelop with my IELTS result. Open, open,  I open it! Can’t really believe my eyes, my result for IELTS is so bad especially for reading and writing parts! The overall mark is 6. I questioned God, is that the mark you answered for my prayer?

I walked to bus stop filled with disappointment! When I sit down and waited for the bus. One of the strangers passed by and gave me a free bus ticket to back home. I was amazed that how come she knew I need a ticket? God is amazing, right? So I told God I trust in You and will rejoice always and forever no matter what happen!!

Philippians 4:4-5

4 Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5 Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near.