Are you willing?
God is doing an operation on me! He deals with the deeply-rooted, sinful ways and habits of my heart during this period! I could not escape and could not deny, even sometime is painful.
Last night, during the prayer meeting, God questioned me are you willing to stay in Brisbane longer, just for growing yourself and serving Hope Brisbane church? I am shocked…Cause my heart belongs to China and I am planning to go back to China probably after one and half years. But God challenged me last night, are you willing to serve my kingdom wholeheartly?
“Wholeheart”… I questioned myself? Am I truely wholeheart to follow Christ? I admit I am not! I am still carrying my own desire, my own plan and my own dream! Graduating from university is around 4 months, I was struggled a lot, doubted a lot and confused a lot! I even negotiated with God. I didn’t truely lay down myself and lift God’s name up, I didn’t. Because I am still living a self-center’s life! My own desire, my own dream, my own plan!
But God questioned me once again today, are you willing to follow me wholeheartly? If I ask you never go back to China, stay in Brisbane for your whole life, are you willing? My answer is I WILL! Lord, first, I am a Christian, then I am a Chinese! My citizenship is in heaven not on the earth, Lord!
Romans 12:2
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is- his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Lord, I am ready to be transformed by Your glory! I am ready, Lord and I am willing!
