The heart of worship

Me, Mum and sister 

Half month passed since I updated last time. Time is flying, which is alwaysa feeling  in my heart. Looking back to my last uni holiday, during this time, I was expected to go home for holiday. While, what I am doing now: preparing IELTs test, part-time job, looking for full-time job and applying Temporary Resident.

Seeing  other sisters and brothers go home for holiday, my heart is stired and I wanna go home for holiday as well. Before I thought I wouldn’t go home because I need to this, I need to do that. But now…my heart can’t stop thinking my sweet families back to China.

 Beside thinking about going home, my spiritual life seems moving well: finishing reading <Victory over darkness>, finding out another  great book <Every young woman’s battle> to read, those books really open my heart and mind! Praise God that I picked up the interest on reading and He provided such great books for me to read!

Life keeps moving during the holiday time. For me this period is very precious because I can prepare more for my future life! Praise God that I am closer to Him and His heart everyday!

Here really wanna say to my parents and my dear sister, I miss you everyday! No matter where I am, I never cease loving you!

My simple prayer for my families back to China is protecing them and giving them more love!–Amen!

my dearest sister-I LOVE HER SO MUCH…

 My last uni exam finished two days ago. My feeling is quite complicated after that. Yeah, it is wonderful to finish my study life. While, I am standing at the junction again. As Pastor Wenan said yesterday, when we grow older, the challenges will be tougher in our life.  It is true!

Say goodbye to my student life. The real world is waiting for me. I need to grow up and enter into the society. I feel scared to face by myself, because I used to depend on my parents and my sister. I used to live as a good student and a good daugter. But now my dear parents and sister aren’t able to be always with me and guide me. I need to make the decision by myself. 

Graduation means looking for job. Gosh, my nearly 16 years study is only for a job? Where is my dream? My motivation for studying was a dream before. Where is my dream? I did not study just for a job or for living. My heart cried out and my mind clashed! I can’t compromise with the real world! I can’t! !

Praise Lord, that I found my rest on Him. If I didn’t know God one year ago, I would live a life that is  always fulfilled with frustration and depression with the real world. But now I can find my joy and peace on Him, even during this junction time for my life!

I applied one job that I feel confident 3 weeks ago, whereas, there is no reply. I gave my resumes to my friends, there is no news. I start to doubt myself and keep asking Lord, where is my direction? Where do you want me to go? What kind of job do you want me to do? When are you going to provide me the job?Questions, questions.. Many times, my quiet time became searching answer time. While, after yesterday church and the prayer from Chris, God calmed me down.

This morning, when I did my quiet time. When I looked at the prayer point is about “pray for missions/missonary”. God questioned me where do your eyes fix on? Why are you worrying so much about your career? Why you let yourself frustrated? What is your true desire? I cried out before God. Truely, What am I caring about? My eyes still fix on the world-the business on the earth. I still wanna everything be under my own control and plan. How silly I am!

Considering about the mission trip on the early of next January, I don’t think God would like me to  work before that. When I think about the time clash issue, I know what is the best plan for me from now until mission trip. Praise You, Lord! Thanks for Your reminding!

I will be still and know You are my God-Jesus!

Since I was very young, I fell in love with piano. I haven’t figured out the reason, just purely love the sound from piano…LOVE IS BLIND??

Accidently, I knew Richard Clayderman and then I fell in love with him.  I am always immersed into his playing…so beautiful sound…

Accidently, I watched a MV about Mother Teresa in YouTube tonight. Put it into this blog..

Remind myself: It is not about how much we do, the more important thing is how much love we put into doing~

This is a lesson that I really learnt from working in Mccafe today.

 After the busyness with assignment, today I feel like flying on the cloud.  Breathing the fresh air, touching the green leaves and walking in the sunshine this morning, I really praise God I am still alive and enjoying the coming Spring. I love Spring because it stands for the beginning of a new year, when we mention beinning that means hope. Yes, hope!  We need fulfuill our life with hope!

With the great mood, I started with my work-making coffee, serving customers, washing dishes etc. That is all the common things that I need to do every time. However, I realise when we change our attitudes to do all the stuff, it makes difference. For example, when I try to make coffee with different shapes on top and let them look nicer, I feel joy and also bring the joy for customers. When I smile to every customer, they smile back to me and keep saying thank you! I feel glad and satisfied to serve them! When my colleague brought dishes for me to wash, I said “thank you for your presents”. Then we laughed at each other that maked more fun for the boring work.

 I didn’t feel exhausted for my job today even it was 8 hours working time. Praise God, I re-found my joy and peace on Him. When I was on the way back home, there was a child smiled to me. I feel so impressed and touched. I realise how important is a simple smile. A  smile can make a big difference in many ways.

Praise God, He gives me a bright smile.  He reminded me today, I can make difference by my simple smile. How simple it is! Father Lord, I promise You I will worship You by my simple smile and my lifestyle!

Those days, I am always busy with my study and work, then lose my life track a little bit. Praise God that I read  the following article from one of friend’s blog.  Here it is:

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when  24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the coffee…

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some  items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous “yes.”

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

 “Now,” said the professor, as the laughter subsided, “I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.” The golf balls are the important things-your God, family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions - things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car. The sand is everything else-the small stuff. “If you put the sand into the jar first,” he continued, “there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.” Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.”

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. “I’m glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there’s always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.”