The heart of worship

Don’t tell me what and how,

Don’t ask me why and when,

I just want to say I am IN..

I am in God’s house,

I am under God’s hands,

I will pursue His perfect plan in my life,

I have given myself and let Him make me fly,

I will fight a good fight in my life,

Never turn back, Never!!

I say again, I AM IN!!!

Another time,

Another day,

I am writing from my bottom of heart.

I stand far away and look at what God is doing in my life,

I draw closer to Him, when I surrender all.

He speaks, He rebukes, He guides and He loves,

He is faithful as He reminded me again and again.

While, my heart is crying because when I draw closer to Him,

I am far away from my family back in China.

I asked, I questioned, I doubted..

At the end, I trust…

If that is His will in my life..

LET IT BE DONE..

Just finished the driving test…unfortunately, I failed the test..Sigh..I believe God is really doing something in my life..I have no job around 3 months, even just wanna pass my driving test during this free time, I failed..Many times, my driving  instructor warns me you should do this otherwise you will fail it straight away. I was listening and scared about this word “failure”. It is a word, nobody wants to hear, me either. I never want to be a failure person, instead, I want to be on top.  I was very discouraged and upset about the failure of the driving test, but somehow I can rejoice again because I know all the negative thoughts are from Satan rather than God. I picked up myself again.

At the same time, I asked God how much more you want to test me. I started to think about the prophecy words that some leader gave to me during the Sub-district Advance that  God gave the JOY to me as my strength so I can use it to bring JOY and HOPE to other people. I am so grateful that God gave me all the JOY and postive thoughts always. Looking at my past, my life seems alright and I got all the things that I want and achieve, everything goes well; it is so easy to be joyful when things are going well. However, God is challenging me even my world fall, can I still find joy in Him and do I still trust in Him & love Him wholeheartedly. Day by day, I realise somehow my  happiness rely on my circumstance-my good result in study, my good paid job or other stuff.

I question God how much more I can bear.  I have nothing left..nothing except Jesus Christ. It seems I become more and more passive about my life and future day after day. But I believe that when I start to surrender my life to Him, He will lift me up! My prayer is my JOY will ONLY  find in Jesus Christ-my salvation and eternal life, which will make me overflow with JOY!

I am poor and weak all I have is yours-every single breath…Lord, here I am..thanks for all the brokenesses, whatever You want to do in this life. Just do it… I will choose to be joyful in YOU and for YOU only. Even if my world will fall, above all, I live for YOUR glory.

Silence…it is only the rain this morning…

Quiet…it is the sound that God is speaking…

The rain outside is so beautiful and pure like pearls…

It is a Sunday morning that I can see such a great view…

I asked God, are you happy or sad this morning?

Are you expecting all the people on this earth could go to church and worship you? I believe you want to have followship with everyone on this earth, I believe you want  everyone to experience your great love, I believe when you see those people fighting, struggling or worshipping other idols your heart is crying and hurt…

Lord, one day…one day…I believe the people on the earth will come to church and worship you on Sunday…don’t be upset, Lord…your children on the earth are doing your work…

God You keep us without failing
As You watch us from above
In our comings and our goings
Sheltered by Your precious love
In the pouring rain of mercy
Comes the grace by which we’re saved
For the glory of Your Name
For the glory of Your Name

You have touched our lives forever
Can we be the same again
May our hearts be ever faithful
Ever faithful as a friend
Let us live that we may serve You
Overflowing with Your praise
For the glory of Your Name
For the glory of Your Name

We behold the man of sorrows
Hanging there upon a cross
Where we wounded One so holy
Yet these wounds are life to us
For the blood You shed was perfect
And Your finished work remains
For the glory of Your Name
For the glory of Your Name

Now we life our eyes to heaven
See You seated on the throne
Still rejoicing in Your promise
This is where our hope is found
For we know that You are coming
Every tongue will sing Your fame
For the glory of Your Name
For the glory of Your Name

This is song very nice melody with the peaceful piano. I fell in love with this song in the first place when I heard from Florence’s alarm sound:P during OC in Melbourne.

Today, I just finished my first prayer book called <Intercessory Prayer> by Dutch Sheets. I spent around half year to finish this book. Humm, such an interesting reading process, I really praise God during this half year. At the begining, I felt the book is so boring book and could not understand what the book talks about, until now, I am able to understand it and discover the value of prayer. Praise God for teaching me how to pray and interceed for others, at the same time, growing my burden to interceed for others.

Thank Lord, let me know the power of prayer!!

It is my second day back to Brisbane from China. Everything is quite familiar: my lovely Daniels brothers and sisters, my great church (Hope Brisbane Christian Church). I called here is my second family, I really love every single one here. Be honest, I don’t know if someday God asked me to leave Brisbane, what is my response. But for Him, I am prepared.

Chose to become a Christian, it is really out of a simple faith in Christ. However, following God’s will and surrounding my whole life to Him need more strength and trust. Many times I trembled when I spoke the truth in front of non-believers back to China; many times I could not sleep well because of the spiritual attacks; many times I was awake because of the nightmare. I started to question how come I need to go through all these “sufferings”. But when I keep reading books of Revelation and Ezekie ect, I know the heart of God for His people and the urgency and fire burning from the Holy Spirit.

Sometimes, I will laught at myself why you worry so much about other people and your country; you are only a common and small girl in this world; do you think you are somebody? I believe many of us have these kind of thoughts, but as a child of God, as a warrior for God’s kingdom, I have the responsiblity and obligation to make difference on the earth and to share the truth and gospel for those blinded people!

Praise God that I can always feel unspoken joy and peace from Him regardless the circumstance around me! It is a journey with Jesus Christ, through tears and joy; but it is such a priviledge that I was chosen by Him and became one of His precious children!

Thanks God that I experienced more than I could imagine when I was in China and He showed me more about my calling and purpose on the earth! Blessed be Your name always and I promise that I will SHINE for Your name always & forever and ever!!

Love You, my dearest Heavenly Father!

I don’t know whether it is a season that I really miss home or not.
Yeah, don’t know from when, I started to count how long I haven’t went back home..1 year..more than 1 year… every time call back home, Daddy, Mummy and sister always ask when are you coming back…when..when…when..I asked myself…I asked God as well…I really don’t know when…I want to go back to China even just a few days, however, my job situation is so unstable and it is under contract, extension or not, find another one or not, ect..so many uncertainties. Sometimes, I am really tired with all those struggles and uncertainties.

I started to ask God can I just go back to China for good. I still can serve You in China. I miss my families and friends, I miss China as well. I don’t know why you put me in such a situation. I have been in Brisbane for around 5 years, 5 years is not a short time, not at all..When I came here I am only 21 years, now getting 26 years old.my best age has been spent here, I don’t want to say that, but I need admit.

Looking at those younger age people, I will smile at them and knew I was like them before. Sometimes, I miss those innocent time, while, most of time, I praise God that He brought me passed that season and grew me in many areas. OLD?->I prefer to describe it more mature. Everyone needs to grow up even I am still serving in student ministry, I know the reason I am still there. Thanks God, He let me know my future direction including personal vision, career direction, future partner, ministry ect as days passed

Still praying and fasting…Drop some thoughts.. really can’t live without writing…I know God created me to write..still haven’t got the answer from God, but I knew He is my best friend and great Father..He knew my thoughts and the things I am going through…

It is a season for reflecting God’s love in my life and reflecting personal vision in God..

It is raining outside, I am sitting in front of my office computer and listening the soft music from the CD player. Most of my colleagues have left and I am looking at rain through the window opposites me.

I started to think my whole working day here. Many times I really want to quit the job because it is quite boring and relaxing. I can say it is really confortable to work here. BUT I asked God why you put me in this position and let me enjoy such a confortable working life. I want more challenges and I want MORE..

The ANSWER is only waiting and patience…As an ambitious young lady, me..yeah..always..from primary school until university, I always have so many dreams and so many things want to achieve in my life. However, when I met God-Jesus Christ, I know life is more than my dreams and my ambitions, I know life is meanless without Him..all the things that I am chasing will fade away one day.

However, sometimes, sometimes, I question God..why I thought something is my strength, NOW, become my weakness..why the things before I am proud of, NOW, become a shame…it hurts, really, hurt and it is painful…

BUT one thing I knew..God trys to kill all my prides and make me become zore before Him…because the OLD has die and the NEW has reborn…

It is raining outside…OLD Sunny has died 2 and half years ago…the NEW Sunny becomes more mature in Christ and she believes RAINY is temporary but SUNNY will be forever…