The heart of worship

I want to stop writing,

I want to stop crying,

I want to stop searching,

I want to stop singing,

But my heart can’t…

Because God gave all of the feelings to me,

Because I was born to love Him,

Because when I am weak,

He makes me strong,

Because I just can’t stop to describe His goodness,

His faithfulness and His  mighty hands in my life.

I love you, Lord-Jesus!

I can’t stop my heart to beat for You…

Since I started to work in Brisbane North Institute of TAFE-international business unit last Tuesday, I became a full time worker. Wake up, work, back home and sleep–that is normal working people do I think. But praise God that I have Him in my life, I am able to spend time with Him everyday even in the workplace.

I questioned God why you put me at TAFE, what is Your purpose for me to work there. Since I got the job until now, I can see how big vision I can do if I keep doing the job as my long-time career. But I also feel panic cause the job is only 4 weeks and now it is already the second week so half the time has already gone. I enjoy the work from my bottom of heart, I truly appreciate God how He knows me better than myself. I enjoy answering all the international students’ enquiries about their study and their visa issue, I enjoy doing the offer letter for the students as possible as I can, I enjoy chatting with the collegues during the break time. Everyday my heart always fills with thanksfulness and joy.

I can say that this job let me know how faithful and amazing is our God working in my life. Recently, God speaked to my heart, “my dear daughter, would you want to be my good daughter and take care of my people.” When God said that to me, my heart cried out and truly was touched by His love. Because our Heavenly Father cares about His people, He wants all of us to take care of His people.

I know when God said ” to be a GOOD daughter for Him” and “take care of HIS people”, there will be more responsibilities for me. Before, I tried to ignore all the responsibilities as possible as I can, but now I said to God, I am willing. Because You are my beloved FATHER, You love me so much even died at the CROSS for me, how I can deny Your LOVE and walk away from those responsibilities!

Yeah, I said to God I am willing to be a GOOD daughter for you forever and take care of Your people! No matter where I go, no matter what I do, the THING I ONLY ask is bring Your LOVE to the people as You have given to me!

Jesus, my dearest FATHER, I love You and thanks for being such a GOOD Father and GOOD model for me!!

Today is Christmas Eve and also my dearest father’s birthday! When I was busy with celebrating Christmas in Life Group and church, I totally forgot today is my father’s birthday. How shame I am! This afternoon my sister sent a message to me from China, which said Merry Christmas to me and also told me about today is Daddy’s birthday! I suddenly felt so guilty!

Last week, I sent a Christmas card back to China for my dearest families. One reason is I want to share Jesus’s love with them and make them feel the love from God. The other reason is I realised my parents’ relationship is still not good! But until last Saturday, the card still didn’t arrive! I cried out to God and asked Him to help me to let the card arrive safely and deliver the message that I want to share with my dearest familes!

Praise God that my Mum told me today that the card arrived yesterday! I am so excited that God answered my prayer and let the Christmas card arrive before Christmas day!But when I called my Mum, she didn’t feel happy to celebrate Daddy’s birthday tonight, even didn’t have any idea about Christmas eve or Christmas! How sad it is! When I felt joyful in Life Group’s x-mas party or church “unforgettable Christmas”, I always thought if my families could feel what I feel, how wonderful it is! I really wanna give all I can give to my families!

I remember there was a question that asked during x-mas party by Ray: what are you going to give for your precious friends or families as a Christmas gift? In my heart, I know I can give my life to my families or my precious friend if necessary! I truely love them so much! But now even celebrating my dearest Daddy’s birthday with my families, I could not make it! I really felt guilty when I heard the crying sound of my Mum from the other phone side! My heart is really really sad!!

I questioned God what kind of the situation that need to face like this? I wanna go home, back to China and share the gospel with my own families? How come I am here to save other people’s lives, how about my families? Who has the mercy on them? Who can share the gospel with them? Who can really take care of them? I wanna solve the problem between Mum and Dad, give them more love which is from you!! But what I am doing now? Caring about others’ lives everyday and ignoring my own loving families?

There is only one answer in my heart! I need you do more for my kingdom! I need you! Obey my calling! Obey! You can do more than what you can imagine! Be strong!!

God, Jesus! I know! I know I need to be strong in You! I know your calling is clearer day by day! Except obedience, I don’t have any way out! But Lord, on the Christmas Eve, can I please have one prayer request: I pray that my Daddy will have a great birthday tonight! my parents’ relationship will get better after tonight! Please open the door for my families to let them know You more after tonight!

Lord, nothing is impossible for You! It is so great that You came to the earth 2000 years before and showed Your love to all of us! I commit myself and my whole families to Your mighty hands tonight, all of us need Your great love and mercy!! I pray in Jesus name, Amen!!

Miss China, especially, 2008 is coming..yeah..2008 Olympic will be held in Beijing. Wanna watch the competitions there..Can I?? Update the promoting video about logo.. I love the video, so great!

All of them look very sweet, right?..haha--like me..huhu:P

Praise God that I am 1 year old in Christ tomorrow… How excited!!Time is flying. On August 20, 2006, I decided to give myself to Christ and accepted Jesus as my personal saviour! 

 Today church’s preaching was AMAZING FREEDOM, when I was there, my memory went back to last year. Yeah, last year the preaching was Prison Break, I made the decision to follow Jesus then. And the main reason was I want to have the whole freedom in my life! How amazing! During the whole year, God changed me a lot and bless me a lot!

I know what is the truely love in my life. I know ‘giving is better than recieving’. I know that how to serve people by my whole heart. I know ‘there is no love in fear, but perfect love drive out of fear’…… I overcame all the situations that I thought I couldn’t handle them. Oh..Lord, How great and true  are You! How amazing and mighty are You!  Thank You Jesus! Thank You for Your hang on the Cross and paying the price for my life! Because that I gain the whole freedom today! Lord, thank You!!

Father Lord, I am one year old! Thank You for one year ago, You guided me to Your kingdom and give You love and mercy to me! I will offer my whole life to worship You, Lord! That is the promise that I made for You, Jesus!

It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery. Galatians 5:1