The heart of worship

Give myself some time,

Give God some time,

Give others some time,

Am I too busy with many things?

Am I too frustrated to see something happen?

Am I relying on my own understanding and strengh?

Am I only according what I have learnt so far from different ones’ preaching?

Am I truly know the reason I am serving God?

Today, I decide to wait upon God…

Waiting for His anointing and answer…

Otherwise, I won’t move…

I know I need to wait upon God patiently…

My holiday just finished, around 3 weeks seems not too long. While, for me, it was quite long…During the holiday, we had healing conference, unit advance and then my parents came. To be honest, I feel really tired.

This week we started our uni. classes on Mon and Tues, work on Wed and Thur. Everyday seems big and long. Nearly exhausted, man..

Push myself to face every situation I face. Try to wake myself up every early morning~try my best to have a good sleep every night. However, during the time I know something missed out in my heart. I didn’t have my quiet time with God. I feel empty in my mind and blur in my eyes. Praise God that I grabed my small bible with me this morning when I left home. I can squeeze a little bit time with God today.

God is always there and preparing to teach me. He shows me the book 1 Timothy, which is the letter from Paul. He reminds me Warning Against False Teachers of the Law.  He keeps questioning me, do you believe me or believe the false teaching from your childhood until now. I was wordless, even now I still have some doubts that I can’t really understand and figure out.

On the bus back home, when I was looking at the beautiful sky, my mind and heart told me that the amazing creation is from God. Only Him can creat such wonderful scenery.

1 Timothy 1: 5The goal of this command is love, which comes from a pure heart and a good conscience and sincere faith. 6 Some have wandered away from these and turned to meaningless talk.  7 They want to be teachers fo the law, but they do not know what they are talking about or what they so confidently affirm.

From those scriptures, we can see that as a human being, we always question and doubt; we are easy to run away from truth and accept the false teaching; we prefer to make the meaningless talk but ignore what is the real treasure.

Today God challenges me: How much I love Him? How much I can forget myself and put Him first? How much faith I have on Him?

I need to stop and examine myself…May Holy Spirit guide me  and clean my blurred mind!