I give my all to you
Send me and i will go for you
To the ends of the earth
I’ll follow after you
I want the world to know
Your love endures forever

Tell me and i’ll obey
This is far greater than sacrifice
Trusting you and not myself
Will always lead to blessing
Lord have your way in me
Not my will, yours be done

Here i stand within your presence
Longing for your touch
A thousand days cannot compare
To one day in your courts

Hold me now
And never ever let me go
My Jesus, my precious saviour
I’m forever yours

I will worship you forever
I will worship you

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My Lord is with me everyday and everywhere!

I put my trust on Him and He is carrying me all the way!

I declare once again: I am forever YOURS-JESUS CHRIST!

Those days is the personality season, I am reading <Personality plus> and also shepherding is about personality. Umm…I believe that God is trying to let me know more about myself and understand others as well.

Note: there are 4 types of personality: Popular Sanguine, Perfect Melancholy, Powerful Choleric and Peaceful Phlegmatic

Most of people agree I am the 80%  popular Sanguine plus some powerful Cholieric, because I am always happy and speak & laugh loudly. Umm..praise God for this change in my life. I can not remember when I started to keep this postive habit in my life. And I believe that God poured so much love and happiness in my life, because He knows I need more than that!

At this time, everyone around me knows my name is Sunny who is a person always has the smile on the face, bubbly around, seems nothing in the world will bring the sadness to her.  While, I can testify how my life becomes happier and happier after I accepted Christ even my personality nature is 35% Perfect Melancholy.

I was born to a family who expects I could be a boy, unfortunately, I am a girl. I lived a life under many pressure & expectations and also my own high stardard. I got depressed and hurt very easily, I was so senstive to other people’s words that I did not have many friends around especially the male friends. Insecurity and low-esteem were the best decription for my past.

My life went up and down always, my living places were always changed because of my dad’s workplace; which made my personality so unstable. Praise God for giving me the lovely name-Sunny; I believe that He wants me to shine for His kingdom even I did not know Him before I got the name. When I compare my past life with current life, ONLY thing I can say is “THANK YOU, LORD”. I am so loved by You that I was saved by You and living a happy life before You. Thank you that You gave me a baby face and soft voice, even I hated them and could not accept them before. Thank You for giving me the Perfect Melancholy personality, which made me ceasely seek my purpose in the world and finally I found You; thank You for giving me the Powerful Choleric personality that makes me be goal-oriented for Your Kingdom alone; thank You for giving me  Popular Sanguine personality to bring joy to Your people…

God makes me whole and reveals my strengthes and weaknesses. No matter what kind of personality I am, I am a child of Him and want to be more like Him. Thanks Daddy (my heavenly Father)…I love You so much and thank You for making me in this way.

Two years ago, there was a girl seeking for the purpose for her life…

Two years ago, there was a girl wondering around just because of losing her first love…

Two years ago, there was a girl always griped her life…

Two years ago, there was a girl wanted to be someone else all the time…

Two years ago, there was a girl dreamed to become someone some day…

……..

20th August, 2006…that girl came to know Jesus Christ. From that day, this girl started to open her heart to Christ …She started with repentence, even through, she could not fully understand, but after 2 years, she understands we do not only repent but also need to turn back from sins. She started with simple faith in Christ, but after 2 years, she knew faith is the thing that even you haven’t seen, but you still believe.

She simply liked the melody of praise and worship songs two years ago, but now she loves praising and worshiping God everywhere and every moment……

She is so grateful today, because today it is the witness for her and her heavenly father, because today is the day that she received the free gift (eternal life) and unconditional love from a person named Jesus Christ. Because of today, her life was changed tremendously and God’s plan and purpose for her start to reveal ; she never ever experienced such great joy, peace and love before…

Today-Sunny is two years old in her spiritual life. She said to Jesus Christ, thank You for Your great love in her life…

because of this love, she is willing to offer her life completely to YOU…

So many things have happened since previous post : my busier workplace, church conference and sub-district advanced. Life is on and on…but, my heart is so thirsty without God’s words and encouragement.

Many things happened but I didn’t fully digest and meditate then apply to my personal life. I feel confused and lost. I told myself: HOLD ON…what is your purpose and your vision for life as our sub-district theme-Destiny reminds me once again. We are so easy to be driven away with all the busynesses, I admit I am the one! My daily Bible reading lost the track, my quiet time is less and less, the books I supposed to read and finish are still sitting there… I questioned myself? Where is my focus? Where is my priority?

My spirit has already been driven away, my love has been run out because I stop asking from the source. My heart cried out like the baby cries for food. Yeah, I need HOLD ON…then I am able to MOVE ON… I start to examine my purpose in Brisbane; I start to check my motivation for job; I start to meditate my vision in my life. Again and again, I know I need to HOLD ON!

I need a simple prayer:

God, never forsake me, rebuke me if I have sins and let my focus on YOU only, make me live a worthy calling life! I pray in JESUS MIGHTY NAME! AMEN!

Sometimes, I don’t know what is happening and I don’t understand why it happened.
Sometimes, I know I am too childlish and too innocent about the society, the world.
But I know I have a SUPERHERO who always protects me and coverS me from the hurt and His name is JESUS!
He is always with me and protect me no matter what happened.

Because He is always there and answer my CALL, I feel safe and secure!

Thank you, Lord-Jesus!

This is a love song for Him

Call on Jesus

Verse 1:
I’m so very ordinary, nothing special on my own.
Oh, I have never walked on water,
And I have never calmed a storm.
Sometimes I’m hiding away from the madness around me
Like a child who’s afraid of the dark

Chorus:
But when I call on Jesus,
All things are possible
I can mount on wings like eagles’ and soar
When I call on Jesus,
Mountains are gonna fall
‘Cause He’ll move heaven and earth to come rescue me when I call

La la la la la, la la la la la

Verse 2:
Weary brother, broken daughter,
widowed, widowed lover, you’re not alone
If you’re tired and scared of the madness around you
If you can’t find the strength to carry on

Chorus:
When you call on Jesus,
All things are possible
You can mount on wings like eagles’ and soar
When you call on Jesus,
Mountains are gonna fall
‘Cause He’ll move heaven and earth to come rescue you when you–

Bridge:
Call Him in the mornin’, in the afternoon time
Late in the evenin’ He’ll be there
When your heart is broken,
And you feel discouraged,
You can just remember that He said
He’ll be there

Chorus (2x):
When I call on Jesus,
All things are possible
I can mount on wings like eagles’ and soar
When I call on Jesus,
Mountains are gonna fall
‘Cause He’ll move heaven and earth to come rescue me

(back to top first time, 2nd time finish with “when I call”)

La la la la la, la la la la la, la la la la la-a-

God is doing an operation on me! He deals with the deeply-rooted, sinful ways and habits of my heart during this period! I could not escape and could not deny, even sometime is painful.

Last night, during the prayer meeting, God questioned me are you willing to stay in Brisbane longer, just for growing yourself and serving Hope Brisbane church? I am shocked…Cause my heart belongs to China and I am planning to go back to China probably after one and half years.  But God challenged me last night, are you willing to serve my kingdom wholeheartly?

“Wholeheart”… I questioned myself? Am I truely wholeheart to follow Christ? I admit I am not! I am still carrying my own desire, my own plan and my own dream! Graduating from university is around 4 months,  I  was struggled a lot, doubted a lot and confused a lot! I even negotiated with God. I didn’t truely lay down myself and lift God’s name up, I didn’t. Because I am still  living a self-center’s life! My own desire, my own dream, my own plan!

But God questioned me once again today, are you willing to follow me wholeheartly? If I ask you never go back to China, stay in Brisbane for your whole life, are you willing? My answer is I WILL! Lord, first, I am a Christian, then I am a Chinese! My citizenship is in heaven not on the earth, Lord!

Romans 12:2

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is- his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Lord, I am ready to be transformed by Your glory! I am ready, Lord and I am willing!

There are so many thoughts in my mind those days. One week ago, our Hope Brisbane Christian Church held Oceania Convention 2008. The theme was “IMMERSION”- A contextualised Church.  God spoke to me so much about my past, about my purpose, about my calling…

I really could not deny God’s amazing work in my heart and my life! Still remember how God healed my emotion hurt, still remember how He lifted me up when I was down, still remember how He showed my calling vision to vision.

I truely surrendered before God during this O.C. I could feel His touch so deep, so real, so warm. He did confirm my calling and He did teach me how to humble and how to really contextualise with different cultures, especially now with Australian people.  

Jesus is truely a holy name, I never ever love a person like Him!  He deserves all my love, He deserves all my praise and worship, He deserves to be king of king, Lord of Lord! I am so gratituded that I knew His beautiful name and invited Him in my life! And I will sing His greatness forever and ever, I will let the whole world know His righteousness and faithfulness!

It was quite interesting, when I were thinking about my love for Jesus. Chris let the girls’ discussion group write a love letter for our Lord-Jesus Christ last Friday during Life group.

Here is my love letter for Him (4th April, 2008)

Dear Lord/ My Heavenly Father,

How can I keep aways singing for your greatness and faithfulness in my life!

The love for you could only be described by every moment I am awake. In the morning, I praise Your light for the whole earth. I love breathing the fresh air and touching the wind that You created; I love every night You calm me down and make me fall asleep sweetly. Lord I love You when you lift me up, I love You no matter what happen you aways smile to me.

Lord, the love that I want to explain to You is much more than the stars and much deeper than the sea! The love will last forever and I am willing to go wherever You go and experienced what you have experienced! Lord-Jesus Christ, my lover forever.

Your precious daughter,

Sunny

Time is flying, more than half of January 2008 has already passed. Looking back I really praise God that I had a great beginning for the new year! We went to Central Coast in New Castle for mission trip, I learnt a lot from this unforgettable mission trip. Today I shared the testimony in church, I pray that my testimony will encourage different ones in church and glorify God’s name. Amen! Here is the testimony:

Today I want to testify how God strengthened and empowered my faith through the mission trip to central coast two weeks ago. 

I became a Christian only about a year ago.When I heard there was a mission trip down to Central Coast in New Castle, I felt excited because I am a person who loves travelling and experiencing different adventures. So for me mission trip was more like an adventure. Also I just graduated from Bachelor of Business degree from QUT so I thought the mission trip could be a great way to celebrate my graduation. When I heard that we are going to help out a new planted Hope church in Central Coast. I realized it was for MISSION and to fulfill the Great Commission,  and it is not only for fun fun fun. I started to take this mission trip serious and prepare myself with fasting, pray, and spend more time on reading Bible. I wanna share three things that really changed my heart during the mission trip. 

The first thing is the great faith of the coordinator in Hope Central Coast. Hope Central Coast started 1 year ago, currently has 5 main members. The coordinator is quite young only 25 years old. He is from Hope New Castle. Before I thought that planting church is a big job for middle-aged or very mature Christian, not for young people. So I saw the young coordinator in Hope Central Coast, I was really inspired by his strong faith in God. 

Another area is about leading the praise and worship. Since our theme for mission trip was “BEYOND”, which means everyone needs beyond our comfort zone and do something new. So I chose to lead the P&W for prayer meeting in the church there. It was my first time leading the worship team. It was quite challenging, however, I prayed God to encourage my heart, lead me and empower me. It was really amazing that I felt extremely peace and joy before I led the P&W on that day. Praise God that I have experienced the breakthrough in worshipping Him and know what is the meaning of a true worshipper. 

Last but not least, it is sharing the good news with local people. As an international student, so far I felt more comfortable to talk with the international students or Asians. While, most of the people we met in Central Coast shopping centre are Aussie. In the beginning, it was not easy for me to talk with them. While, God enabled me to share my testimony with them boldly after I prayed to Him. I stepped out and shared the good news with local people and most of them are quite open. I believe that God showed me that I can bring the good news to the local people and bless them. 

In conclusion, 2008 Central Coast mission trip was an unforgettable trip. It was a great spirtual adventure and wonderful graduated trip for my life. I’d like to encourage everyone to join up the mission trip when the opportunities are coming and be part of the great commission. Don’t worry if you are a young Christian, because God will always be there to help you and encourage you! 

At last, I want to leave you with the verses from Matthew 28:19-20 this is the great commission that God commanded to all believers:Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.

How amazing is our Heavenly Father! I can’t really explain how amazing He is!

I met one of my customers whose name is Rodney in Mccafe and then he talked with me because of my big smile last week. He asked me about my study and my future plan after graduation and then I just shared with him that I am looking for advertising job right now. Then he said he has a friend owns an advertising company and suggested me to gave him my resume. He would like to pass my resume to his friend.

It sounds great! I did it. Then he rang me yesterday and asked me to join their business seminar tonight and he would like to introduce his friend who owns the advertising company to me. That is perfect! I was quite excited to hear the news.

While, the amazing things happened, the seminar I went which I has been before, about how to make “active income”, how to make your finance independent and how to gain the freedom without the limitation of money and so on. Money..Money is the key point, any way! I was quite interested when I first heard that last year, but right now I know what is the most jmportant thing in my life.

After the seminar, I had a short chat with Rodney. I shared about how my real feeling about the seminar and the reason I quit the “making money” team in the beginning of this year. I shared about how God changed my concept on money and how God helped me to make choice. When he heard that, he was agreed with me since he is a Christian as well, while, he  backslides for around four years, he hasn’t went to church for four years. He just feel his spiritual life is awful. We could not stop sharing personal relationship with God things like that.

Well, we still met his friend-Kate and her husband. I gave them my resume. They are quite friendly and said they would have a look, even though their company doesn’t need staff, they will pass my resume to some kinds of advertising associations. I am really appreciated after hearing that and they will ring me later.  How excited!

While, the main point is Rodney told me that nothing happened without reasons. He feels that God is calling him! I agree with that! So I invited him to our church this Sunday! Hopefully, he will go back to God and pick up his spirtiual walking with God!

Lord, You are amazing! Everything is truely in Your hands! I strongly believe that you are making a way!!

Tonight we had extra prayer meeting from 7 pm-10:30pm. It was so wonderful! I really felt the presence of God. Right now it is quite late, while, I feel I need to record something that God spoke to me during the prayer meeting.

I saw a picture that Jesus was on the way to the Cross, He spoke to me that I gave my life to you, I am willing to hang at the Cross for your salvation. Are you willing to finish my mission-share the gospel around the world? That is my only request, are you going to do the mission for your life’s purpose?

And later God spoke to my heart through the intercession team member, My way is higher than your way! That is true, God’s way is higher than my way! Finishing God’s mission is my life purpose! Nothing will be higher than that as my life purpose!

Thank You, Jesus! Thanks for Your salvation, thanks for your Amazing love. Because of You, I am set free from the darkness and death! I choose to obey You! I give up my all and choose to follow You! I will throw away my crown and fulfill Your mission! Strength me and empower me! All I want is You in my life! I will shout Your fame to all the earth and lift Your name on high!