Don’t tell me what and how,

Don’t ask me why and when,

I just want to say I am IN..

I am in God’s house,

I am under God’s hands,

I will pursue His perfect plan in my life,

I have given myself and let Him make me fly,

I will fight a good fight in my life,

Never turn back, Never!!

I say again, I AM IN!!!

Another time,

Another day,

I am writing from my bottom of heart.

I stand far away and look at what God is doing in my life,

I draw closer to Him, when I surrender all.

He speaks, He rebukes, He guides and He loves,

He is faithful as He reminded me again and again.

While, my heart is crying because when I draw closer to Him,

I am far away from my family back in China.

I asked, I questioned, I doubted..

At the end, I trust…

If that is His will in my life..

LET IT BE DONE..

Just finished the driving test…unfortunately, I failed the test..Sigh..I believe God is really doing something in my life..I have no job around 3 months, even just wanna pass my driving test during this free time, I failed..Many times, my driving  instructor warns me you should do this otherwise you will fail it straight away. I was listening and scared about this word “failure”. It is a word, nobody wants to hear, me either. I never want to be a failure person, instead, I want to be on top.  I was very discouraged and upset about the failure of the driving test, but somehow I can rejoice again because I know all the negative thoughts are from Satan rather than God. I picked up myself again.

At the same time, I asked God how much more you want to test me. I started to think about the prophecy words that some leader gave to me during the Sub-district Advance that  God gave the JOY to me as my strength so I can use it to bring JOY and HOPE to other people. I am so grateful that God gave me all the JOY and postive thoughts always. Looking at my past, my life seems alright and I got all the things that I want and achieve, everything goes well; it is so easy to be joyful when things are going well. However, God is challenging me even my world fall, can I still find joy in Him and do I still trust in Him & love Him wholeheartedly. Day by day, I realise somehow my  happiness rely on my circumstance-my good result in study, my good paid job or other stuff.

I question God how much more I can bear.  I have nothing left..nothing except Jesus Christ. It seems I become more and more passive about my life and future day after day. But I believe that when I start to surrender my life to Him, He will lift me up! My prayer is my JOY will ONLY  find in Jesus Christ-my salvation and eternal life, which will make me overflow with JOY!

I am poor and weak all I have is yours-every single breath…Lord, here I am..thanks for all the brokenesses, whatever You want to do in this life. Just do it… I will choose to be joyful in YOU and for YOU only. Even if my world will fall, above all, I live for YOUR glory.

Silence…it is only the rain this morning…

Quiet…it is the sound that God is speaking…

The rain outside is so beautiful and pure like pearls…

It is a Sunday morning that I can see such a great view…

I asked God, are you happy or sad this morning?

Are you expecting all the people on this earth could go to church and worship you? I believe you want to have followship with everyone on this earth, I believe you want  everyone to experience your great love, I believe when you see those people fighting, struggling or worshipping other idols your heart is crying and hurt…

Lord, one day…one day…I believe the people on the earth will come to church and worship you on Sunday…don’t be upset, Lord…your children on the earth are doing your work…

God You keep us without failing
As You watch us from above
In our comings and our goings
Sheltered by Your precious love
In the pouring rain of mercy
Comes the grace by which we’re saved
For the glory of Your Name
For the glory of Your Name

You have touched our lives forever
Can we be the same again
May our hearts be ever faithful
Ever faithful as a friend
Let us live that we may serve You
Overflowing with Your praise
For the glory of Your Name
For the glory of Your Name

We behold the man of sorrows
Hanging there upon a cross
Where we wounded One so holy
Yet these wounds are life to us
For the blood You shed was perfect
And Your finished work remains
For the glory of Your Name
For the glory of Your Name

Now we life our eyes to heaven
See You seated on the throne
Still rejoicing in Your promise
This is where our hope is found
For we know that You are coming
Every tongue will sing Your fame
For the glory of Your Name
For the glory of Your Name

This is song very nice melody with the peaceful piano. I fell in love with this song in the first place when I heard from Florence’s alarm sound:P during OC in Melbourne.

It is a season that God teaches how to love people around me…

Never thought that I will be deep in love some friends and treat some group of people as my family. I appreciate Hope Brisbane Christian Church especially Daniels (my chrisitan fellowship group) taught me how to love my brothers and sisters in Christ, how to treat them as my own families.

Looking back to  my younger ages in school, university back to China, I had a few closed friends. However, I never ever feel such a closed friendship with them and treat them as my own family members because I didn’t know what LOVE is.  We were  closed but since we had our own life goals, believe, interest ect, we couldn’t be closed as a family.  Maybe that is my own problem  since I didn’t have the security in friendship. Because I always thought everyone has their own life and people are all like the passengers, come and go…I don’t want to give my all to them because I am afraid I will be hurt when they are leaving or I am leaving.  So I always reserved my love or care for my friends. However, I missed out the great friendship that I may have through giving or receiving.

As time goes by…I am in Daniel 2 group more than 2 years. The thing I learnt more and more is having the true friendship with one another especially the great relationship as brothers and sisters in Christ. God makes me see how lovely my different brothers and sisters in Daniels  are especially in Daniel2; different people have different personalities, strength and weaknesses, but we love one another as who they are. That is the way to love people…we just simply love them not matter who they are and what they are doing as God loves all of us even we are still sinners.

As time goes by…I understand more about God’s love for my life

As time goes by…I am able to share my love with others

As time goes by…I could find joy in God even it is in small things.

As time goes by…I am so grateful that I have such a wonderful family in Brisbane, Australia.

Today, I just finished my first prayer book called <Intercessory Prayer> by Dutch Sheets. I spent around half year to finish this book. Humm, such an interesting reading process, I really praise God during this half year. At the begining, I felt the book is so boring book and could not understand what the book talks about, until now, I am able to understand it and discover the value of prayer. Praise God for teaching me how to pray and interceed for others, at the same time, growing my burden to interceed for others.

Thank Lord, let me know the power of prayer!!

It is my second day back to Brisbane from China. Everything is quite familiar: my lovely Daniels brothers and sisters, my great church (Hope Brisbane Christian Church). I called here is my second family, I really love every single one here. Be honest, I don’t know if someday God asked me to leave Brisbane, what is my response. But for Him, I am prepared.

Chose to become a Christian, it is really out of a simple faith in Christ. However, following God’s will and surrounding my whole life to Him need more strength and trust. Many times I trembled when I spoke the truth in front of non-believers back to China; many times I could not sleep well because of the spiritual attacks; many times I was awake because of the nightmare. I started to question how come I need to go through all these “sufferings”. But when I keep reading books of Revelation and Ezekie ect, I know the heart of God for His people and the urgency and fire burning from the Holy Spirit.

Sometimes, I will laught at myself why you worry so much about other people and your country; you are only a common and small girl in this world; do you think you are somebody? I believe many of us have these kind of thoughts, but as a child of God, as a warrior for God’s kingdom, I have the responsiblity and obligation to make difference on the earth and to share the truth and gospel for those blinded people!

Praise God that I can always feel unspoken joy and peace from Him regardless the circumstance around me! It is a journey with Jesus Christ, through tears and joy; but it is such a priviledge that I was chosen by Him and became one of His precious children!

Thanks God that I experienced more than I could imagine when I was in China and He showed me more about my calling and purpose on the earth! Blessed be Your name always and I promise that I will SHINE for Your name always & forever and ever!!

Love You, my dearest Heavenly Father!

Here I am. Today is my seventh day in China, what I am thinking and doing? I said to the Lord, preserve me in Your way and will; I cried out to the Lord, never let me get used to the confort life here; I pray that no enemy could harm me and shake my faith in Him.

Here I am. It is a holiday for me in China. I am living in a nice and big house with my lovely parents and my beloved sister & her kid and husband. I have my favourite and comfort bedroom with my own bathroom. I can ask my dad drive me to anywhere if I want; I can ask my mum to go shopping with me whenever I like; my sister will pay for me even I don’t ask for.

Here I am. It is a time for me to get married. My relatives are worried about me and want to introduce someone has the good family background, high-education and high-paid job in a big company. They said we are very “Matched”, if I marry with him I will have a happy life ever and I can serve my parents here which is a BEST idea ever for a yong lady.

Here I am. I bow down before God, if I didn’t know Him two and half years ago, the life mentioned above I will be so glad to enjoy and accept; I will think probably that is the LIFE. But thanks God that I know all those things are temporary, my life in this world is temporary, but my life in heaven is eternity. What I am treasuring is my rewards in heaven not the earth. I know that His way is perfect and BEST for me.

Here I am. I choose to go back to Brisbane after 2 weeks because I know my God called me to stay there and there is where I want to belong.

I believe it is the time for me to take a break after 9 months work and different challenges in my life!

Take a break and it is time for coffee…
Sometimes, I realise I am so busy with many things but I forgot to rest in God’s unfailing love!

Thanks God that I can have a holiday and reflect my vision, direction and get ready for more challenges!!